echoes of the heart...

8000 miles away

"The best of a book is not the thought which it contains, but the thought which it suggests; just as the charm of music dwells not in the tones...but in the echoes of our hearts..."



Everyone will agree on me if i say that long distance relationship is one if not the hardest kind of relationship to maintain. Most lovers often just let it go to stop the pain and complications the distance is causing them. Giving up on someone who's thousand miles away may not be that hard as it is from someone who' just around, regardless of how much we love the person. Maybe because we are too focus on the physicality of the relationship that we do not pay importance on the love itself? Or we can also be too tired to give love a fight ? It is indeed admiring to know that other people are willing to ache, fight and work out on their relationship no matter how far they are from each other.

Dwelling and sulking on the distance will definitely not help you ease the pain of missing him. Distance is a very frustrating fact of reality whenever you feel like touching, holding and feeling that person and the least you can do is grab a pillow and hold it too tight. Hoping and wishing you'd feel that familiar warmth. So instead, we try to stay away from that line of thinking just to keep our sanity.

We long and ache some more when the person we love is either sick or down or is feeling that same ugly feeling you do, and you feel ready to swim the ocean just to be near him. Climb on the mountains just to be half way to where he is. So instead, we close our eyes and dream. If wishes are true...we'd be holding each other in a blink of an eye.

Then we realize how hard it is and painful could be an understatement. But love is there shouting and striking both your very hearts, so you have to deal with it and deal with it good! So instead, we try to meditate on the other avenue of thought. We dwell more on the feelings, on love and of trust that LOYALTY and FAITHFULNESS are being pledged in the absence of physical nearness. With every beat of my heart I hear a faint sound, an echo of a heart beat with love all around, The message is simple as it calls out to YOU..."I will love you forever...our whole lives thru..."


We may be 8000 miles away from the one we love but hang on and keep loving, keep fighting, let the LOVE echoes from our hearts and be heard...8000 miles away.

heart of the matter...

It's so easy to give opinions and remarks on the things that we know nothing about and believe that it make ourselves look smarter. Somebody told me that it makes more sense to ask someone who's not involve to get a reasonable answer if you're looking for truth, but i beg to disagree. Some of them may give you fiction instead of facts. There's a vast difference between seeing and perceiving, believing and of feeling.

Some people can be really judgmental, they often measure somebody's worth base on your actions and norms of the society. If you don't follow those norms then there must be something wrong with you. If you fell in love to the real essence of the word to a person who is married you'll hear a lot of negative things from other people. They will even call you names no Webster Dictionary could ever define. If you weren't able to finish school, you'll be subject to different kinds of stories enough to win the Pulitzer prize award. If you have been convicted of a crime and served some time in jail they will stay away from you like as if you have leprosy or a horrible disease.

Its hard to explain and defend yourself to people who'd already made up their minds about you. They will only see the things they want to see and believe the ones they want to believe. There might be some people who's willing to see the other side of the coin and give you all the benefits of the doubt. But sometimes you miss that opportunity to clean your name because you're too afraid to try and to be rejected even more. You probably think its just a waste of time or you don't want things to get more complicated.

So, everyday you drag yourself to live your life and keep all the hurts inside while your silence is being taken as an evidence against you and this kind of stories are history that will keep repeating itself because you haven't deal with the heart of the matter. While there is truth in saying we are not accountable to anyone but God, it does help that we deal with the issue once the opportunity is given to us. People may or may not believe you, but a good name is always worth a try.

rush and the ride...

Yeah, RIDE the LIGHTNING... for its impact might shaken your stagnant mind and warm your cold heart to make you realize the painful reality you put me through... And once you've felt the sharp pain running through your veins, somehow you'll might not want to inflict that same kind of 'death in the air' unto anyone else... anymore. Love is a chaos, so embrace it, live it, breathe...and enjoy the RUSH and the RIDE.

face of love

What does love look like, does anybody know? Love may be one if not the simplest thing to write or say yet is a topic that is so hard to comprehend. Some people die without knowing what love is while others are still around...not knowing where love is.

I once traveled the road where love is a faceless man.Where heart beats as stable and breathing comes as easy. When words are unspoken, my ears strained to hear and when actions are unseen, i blindly made believe.

But I guess i cross the path where my heart grew tired and weary. Where summer is not as warm and spring no longer blooms. On a naked eye i long to see, the beauty of love that has never known. Will I ever see love...will i ever be loved?

A lot of pain and some rejections brushed my heart a couple of times. It only evokes a deeper yearning, of being wanted and to be needed. At a crossroad i stand, with my heart bare naked. Unclothed, without inhibitions i dared to walk with trust. He may not be the person i thought he is nor am i ready to be the answer to all of his needs. But I'm willing to give love another chance and perhaps myself another try.

He took my hand and lead me on to a road i once traveled--alone. I allowed him and let the feeling flow. As he tell me he how much he cares. This heart will trust, this heart will feel and love will conquer all obstacles. We know the road will not be easy but together we will make it. As he brushed his lips against mine, eyes are closed and heart ever trusting, i whispered "this is the night...i touch the face of LOVE".

the bond

Communication is the key to most every relationship if not all. And those who are not gifted with the close distance should try to communicate more with their loved ones to show them you care--really care. It's amazing how someone can say he/she loves you and have you feel it though he/she is oceans apart from you. Marriage should not be the end of expressing how you value the person you said " I DO " with but instead a beginning of a life long journey with them. Have you lost the mystery of a good founded relationship just because things are no longer simple as they used to be? When obstacles are not as easy as the ones you had when she was just your girlfriend or him your boyfriend? Is the LOVE need not be expressed just because there are so many things on your mind lately? Show the person how you feel and tell them words they should be hearing. words unspoken makes some hearts broken. Exercise the power to send and receive love though you're not near each other. No matter where you are and what you do send him or her the message across. Rather than waste the golden time hoping one day you did said "I LOVE YOU..."

Tagged !

Have you ever wanted something so bad in your life and worked so hard to get it only to be frustrated because no matter how much work you put into it, still nothing happens? Things doesn't always happen the way we want them nor the way we planned them to be, a fact that each of us must be willing and ready to accept. We can dream and set our goals, do our fair share of making them work and become real. But we can only do as much. There will be times when the rope must be pulled by someone else to reveal the finish product.

Working in a call center has taught me a lot of lessons with regards to being patient, hard work and persistence. I've always been fascinated by the blooming industry of Call Center and the media hype is making me wonder all the time on what its like to be an "agent"? So I decided to take the plunge and see the battlefield-- with my own eyes.

Well, why not? It pays good than a normal job here. I'm even earning twice the wage of my mom who's holding a supervisory position in a local health department. I have health insurance, life insurance, hazard pay and different kinds of performance bonus (thanks to those people who signed up with me,hehe!), gets to work in a nice, air conditioned, posh office cubicle that i made to look like HOME by bringing in family pictures to remind me that i still have a normal life after the 9 hours whirlwind working atmosphere. Mirrors to remind myself not to frown too much when its been 2 hours without a sale. Book, when I'm privileged and blessed enough not to have a call on my line for a good 15 minutes. Pillow to hug and play its edges, design and pattern while customer on the other line is yelling at me for a bad service that can be technical issues. Last but not the least, is my ever reliable blanket to wrap myself around when i feel cold, threatened by too much non sale calls, its something i can just pull over my head or cover the PC with whenever I feel a deep, long, broad explanation and undivided attention is being required of me to catch the sale i desperately need. You think its an easy job? Think twice! We will not be given much and compensated that much either if the load of the job is close to being a comfortable task to do. Remember a passage from the scriptures "to whom much is given, much is expected?" oh boy! everyday I can see that loud and clear.

But no work can be a dream one that's why we are being paid by doing it. It can be something we might not like to do if given the choice. So i just try to find something good about being a call center agent. Be thankful that i have a job to support me and my family. Find a way to enjoy every call and conversation by the person on the other line who sounded so much like George Clooney though half of the time he's just cursing me and giving me loads of "F" words to last me 8 jobs! Remind myself that I once called my internet provider just to let them know how much their service sucks! So a little bit of understanding and patience are also needed to survive this battle. Hard work to make your eyes and mind open by 1 a.m. (while most of the people are snoring the night away) and keep them open until your shift ends. Perseverance to hit your goals and target instead of your supervisor hitting you with insulting remarks to get that precious sale you both longing for and desire. And just when you thought you have that "golden sale" sitting on the palm of your hand after extracting payment informations will the customer's mobile phone went down...down and gone along with your dream sauna massage you're thinking of getting with your commission on that call. After painting the most beautiful picture of the product, talk to him for a couple of hours until you get the sweet "YES" only to find out that he left his credit card somewhere or the call will drop from some technical problems! You think its a bad day? Wait until you find out you need to render overtime because one of your team mate is absent just on the same day your child will be performing on a school program.

I don't like the job at all...but its not a job to me. Its a place where i get to meet my friends who enjoy complaining as much as I do, free flowing coffee until you break down, see how a person smile and talk while reading her payslip, new friends we meet everyday in those calls in the absence of a physical picture. Some are irate while others can be too sweet and nice enough for me to consider a passage in US.

Being a call center agent have its own pressures and stress along with any other kind of jobs. Here we eat and chew them but try not to digest it and let it inside. Its a fast-paced, fun and rewarding place to earn money. If you know how to play your cards. When you've learn to discern and accept what are the things or the calls that can be a sale or non sale will you know your limits. The product may be perfect, price reasonable and you are the company's Top Agent, but if the customer is not qualified nor willing to do his share for some unknown, unimaginable reasons...there's nothing else that you can do. Just like in life.

We dream, work hard for it, if its not meant to be then it will never be yours. Let go and keep moving. As a call center agent you need to learn when is the time to push to when is the time to really let go and just proceed to your next call, make the closing spiel and thank the customer. When all of your efforts fall short and everything else fails, just TAG it! "customer hang up, NO SALE!"